to understand you

i am mortal collection. to understand you. Lately I've felt you don't really know me. You look at me daily and stare past my hockey puck eyes, straight into my soul and still emerge empty. Almost as though there's nothing worth seeing back there in the haze at all. You drop me home the shortcut…

maybe i’m just better alone

I Heard This Song & Thought Of You...(2) https://open.spotify.com/track/45Nc6nYgV3yBvAeRaZt689?si=ZiSUvHBiRNOd1BKFZFeP7w&nd=1 Now I barely need you. And it's crazy because I thought I always would. I didn't think I could feel pain like this anymore - caused by you of all people. But the fact that I have has opened my eyes. You opened my eyes in…

freedom 3: an introspective week

dis a old post sarryyy WELCOME BACK TO THE BLOG! thank you for being here and happy introspection! so a while ago i made myself do a week of shadow work prompts because i had really been falling off it, and i felt the impact it was having on my daily life which i wasn't…

not in love

quite the opposite dear. it’s funny to see and it’s funny to hear. far too nice i’m far too kind. i’m a mess, and far too blind. and you’re no prince charming in disguise  fun at night, sometimes sunrise. i’m indifferent but still thinking maybe you’d do it someday. maybe you’d stop thinking you’re the…

i miss long beach & i miss you,

Hey guys and welcome back to my blog! i'm not even going apologise for inconsistency because 1. i feel like i do it every other post lol and 2. i feel like it's a part of my nature when i blog. This is mainly because the act of releasing myself into the world for anyone…

out of body feelings

(i wrote this post in the midst of a mental breakdown and i wanted to post it because it reminded me of how my brain worked for the longest time in pretty much all situations. Catastrophizing and black and white thinking is so compartmental and overwhelming that it really makes you forget all the blessings…

becoming more authentic + a playlist i made

i feel like for a long time i've been hiding huge parts of myself from the world, myself even. I feel like there are so many parts of myself that even those closest to me do not know about. When i think about it, it doesn't feel like a conscious choice i'm making. it feels…

freedom #2 – why you should never look for home in anyone but yourself

The saddest thing I’ve been forced to learn in this world of woe and energy, Is that unless you’re getting what you give, nothing matters.  Time and time again you’ll trip, wondering why you feel so alone. But you’re never alone when you’re with yourself. I wish I knew it earlier. Made sense of the…

star’s music class no. 1 PinkPantheress – to hell with it

Hey everyone okay so we are all finally reading this long put off post. she finally got out of bed wooo - thank you, thank you. DISCLAIMER - Since music is one of the biggest forms of expression there is, in these music classes, I delve into topics that some songs may mention. Some of…

I packed my bags and flew across the world.

to find a feeling which I'm still not sure I'm certain of... Hello everybody and welcome back to the blog.. I appreciate you for taking time out of your day to listen to the ramblings of a random introspective 19 year old. As I had mentioned in my last blog post which I've linked for…